The best night of your life? Bullshit!

I’ve never understood the meaning of New Year’s Eve. Everyone is getting crazy about this night as if their life depended on it. Chill your butt, world!

People think it’s the most important and the best night in the year. I don’t agree with it.

The most important night in the year is on your birthday and the best night in the year may even happen when you don’t expect it.

Stress and money loss on NYE is senseless. Spending too much money on pretty dresses and shoes and new expensive suits and paying a lot of money for fancy party not at all far away from them is a waste.

If I wanted to celebrate it I would probably travel somewhere hot and spend this night dancing and drinking pink drinks. The same prize as for a party in hotel in my own city plus all preparations including doing hair and make up and buying new dress and shoes.

I don’t celebrate New Year’s Eve since I can remember. I prefer to spend it in pijama watching movies and eating sweets with my cat on my laps enjoying a quiet and lonely night.

Everyone is partying in shiny dresses so if you want to make this night special, then do something special.



A letter to 2012 year

Dear 2012,

You weren’t a bad year,

But I could have taken more out of you.

I lost the sense of time.

You were supposed to end the world

But I’m grateful you didn’t.

I’m not ready to die yet.

I want to make myself happy first.

You were a calm year.

There wasn’t more political dramas than usual.

You passed fast, as always.

I just started my last bachelor semester

And now I’m already finishing first one of masters.

You were a good year, 2012,

But I hope 2013 will be even better.


Is every friendship worth fighting for?

Each of us have a friend in our lives who is special for us and who we would like to have around for a very long time. Unfortunately, not all of our special friends feel the same towards us.

A while ago I wrote a post as a letter to my ex best friend which was a first case for me when fighting for friendship is useless. She chose a man who controlled all her life and forced her to stop being friends with me.

Yesterday, another special friend of mine proved me that fighting for friendship is hopeless.

I wasn’t the easiest person to deal with for a big part of last few years, but in last few months I’ve changed. I’m calmer, I think before I speak and I don’t explode that easy anymore.

But it doesn’t matter, because this friend of mine (as everyone else, I guess) will never see the change in me. He will only judge and see me by who I was not who I’m now.

For last few weeks or even months I’ve been trying so hard to show him I’m different now. I kept my mouth shut even if I was upset with something, I was chitty-chatty even though it doesn’t happen too much. I’ve been trying hard to ‘please’ him and put aside behaviour he didn’t like.

Everything was good until I showed that even though I’ve changed, I still have feelings and I can be sad or upset. And all I heard was a story which included my past behaviour which has nothing to do with present one.

Then I asked myself a question: Is it worth? Is it worth to fight alone for this friendship?

I’ve fought for few friendships, but since it was one side I gave up. But in this case it’s different. It isn’t some random friend. He is like a big brother for me, someone who I could count on when I needed, someone whose advices I always listened to.

But I’m tired to be the only one who is trying. I know I wasn’t the best friend most of the time, but I tried to make things right. But he doesn’t see it at all. I doubt he ever will.

Even though it hurts me so much, I think it’s time to let go….


Very Inspiring Blogger Award

I was nominated to Very Inspiring Blogger Award by Antonia!

I’m very glad for this award. Every blogger wants to inspire others.

This is my third award and it makes me happy to see that others consider my blog as one of special ones. This is what we are blogging for. To affect someone positively in one way or another!

I really appreciate the nomination!

Thank you so much for this, Antonia!

Those are the rules of the award:

  • Display the award logo on your blog
  • Link back to the person who nominated you.
  • State seven things about yourself.
  • Nominate fifteen other bloggers for this award and link to them.
  • Notify those bloggers of the nomination and the award’s requirements.

Let’s get it started then!


7 things about me:

1. I cry when I hear about other people’s suffering.

2. I love everything raspberry.

3. I only watch music videos which have a great choreography.

4. I wish winter never existed.

5. I don’t know how to behave when I hear a compliment.

6. I like watching Disney Channel.

7. I’m very picky about everything.


My nominees:
















Music Addiction

Since few weeks I can’t stop listening to ‘Superlove’ by Avicii and Lenny Kravitz. It’s strange, because I’m not too big fun of any of them.

But this song made me addicted. I listen to it on and on and on and on and…. etc. It makes me want to dance.

I can’t remember when last time I’ve been into some song that much.

It makes day brighter and better immediately.


SLP#11: Help

I’ve always cared about everyone else more than I care about myself, that’s why whenever someone asks me for help (or don’t even ask just say they are in bad situation) I’ll always do my best to help them.

I don’t like when people around me are sad or upset. Their mood somehow always becomes my mood as well.

I imagine myself in their position and I try to find some solutions for their situation. I can’t give up until they are happy. It’s stronger than me. Like some inner power was ‘forcing’ me to help them till the end. ‘Forcing’ is not the best word, but you know what I mean, right?

I want everyone around me to be happy and I doubt it will ever change. I often get upset or sad, because of a stranger who I’ll probably never see in my life. I’m too sensitive for other people’s pain.


Christmas: Day 2

The only good thing in Christmas is food.

Red borscht with dumplings and pierogi with mushroom and cabbage is something what I wait for every year. I can buy them in shop obviously, but it won’t taste the same as my aunt’s cooking!

That’s the only thing that makes me happy in this time of the year.

Beside that it’s nightmare. Windy Christmas evening in small town is like scene from horror movie and there is no public transport at all! I don’t sleep enough, because I spend time with family till late evening and I have to wake up in the early morning!

In Poland we celebrate three Christmas days (24-26) so there is a lot of food, which I can’t resist so I’m afraid to check my weight after. I failed in my diet and 21 days rule! I’m disappointed with myself!

I can’t wait for Christmas to end to sleep well and lose some weight instead of gaining!