Many people see me as an arrogant and cold person. They think my silence is caused by that while I’m only shy. The truth is that I feel safe on distance.
I’m like a hawk flying around and watching. When I feel comfortable I come closer.
I have my bubble which is pink and pretty and I like floating on foam inside it.
I know I have a wall around me. It protects me. In the past I trusted too easy or got involved too fast and I ended up hurted. No matter are we talking about friendships or relationships.
I actually like this wall. It shows me who really cares to break into it and see the real me. I don’t care do people see me as arrogant or bitchy. If they believe first impressions I’m not interested in having them in my life anyway.
I know I sometimes judge too fast as well, but I always give chances to other people. No matter what I have thought about them few minutes earlier.
I also want to tell you, my dear readers, that I know I’m not ‘too active’ on your blogs and I may not like or comment on every post you make, but believe me, I always read them. I’m not the type who comments on everything they read. I’m silent and I’m rather a thinker than a talker. I follow your blogs, because they interest me and somehow teach me new things or different points of view. I cherish your posts and I’m glad I had chance to drop by your blogs and stay.
My silence is not my weakness. I treat it as a value sometimes. I rather stay silent, analyze and be myself than pretend someone I’m not to gain attention. I prefer people to dislike me for who I am than like me for who I’m not.