There are some things I don’t like and I want to change them.
This is a list for me to work on to be the prefect me.
- I care too much
Someone may think why is it a bad thing? But believe me, it is. I care a lot and sometimes I care too much even for people who don’t deserve it. I’m not the type of person who gives up easy on friends and I keep caring even though it hurts me. I want to care less and stop as fast as someone stops carying about me.
- I get angry quickly
I really don’t like it about myself. It’s easy to make me angry even about the smallest things. One wrong word and I’m a devil. I sometimes don’t react with angryness when someone annoys me, but when I’m in bad mood I don’t control myself.
- I’m too mean
Sometimes I just can’t stop myself from being mean to everyone who is talking to me. I don’t know what causes it, but I feel really bad afterwards. This feeling is stronger than me.
- I’m not confident
A lot of people tell me I’m an amazing friend, strong, carying. Just perfect. The problem is that I don’t feel it. Sometimes I do, but it vanishes fast. I want to feel that I’m as great as people tell me.
- I’m very shy
Not cute shy. Shy shy. I would never speak to a stranger, I’m scared when I need to go alone to a new place, I would never go out alone. It paralizes me. I want to be able to do things alone, but I’m. Even if I travel alone I meet someone who I know at the destination anyway. I would never go for vacation alone and stay alone all the time.
- I have problems with saying what I think
There are people I know who I’m trying to ‘please’ and I’m affraid to say something they may not like cuz I’ll lose them. Even though I know I’ll be ok, because I lost people before, but I still do it. I want to say what I want without fear people will leave and that I will suffer.
I hope I’ll be able to change those things in me.
I want to be the person people think I am and just enjoy my life.